October 2009
“It’s okay if you’re kind of scared - trust you’ve got good company, it’s alright...”
– Landing Project
I remember the exact moment I first saw you and it has stuck in my mind ever since, there you were like myself watching this condition kill it for the chance of a lifetime, even though we didn’t speak until months afterward it felt like I sort of new you through our mutual friends, this is kindof how my dream started last night it started on that day, but ratherthan holding back I knew...
"I am losing sleep again"
so I’m up before the sun is after a whole Three hours of sleep which doubles the amount of sleep from the night before, within the last 5 days or so I’ve probably slept a total of about 8-10 hours. It’s not that I don’t want to, or haven’t tried to, sleep It’s just as of recently there’s just always so much on my mind.
a secret you just couldn’t keep silent,
heard through the grapevine and hearsay
but i didn’t need to hear anything
your actions told me everything
you cant take back
what has already been done and said
and when this room stops spinning
i’m sure to be seeing red
you cant stop the world
its going to continue to spin
and despite all your efforts
im not gonna let you win
...
No Feather Oars
this is a upstreem river
and i have no feather oars
they’re way heavier than wood
a weight pulling my boat down
oh this ship will sink
and theres only one thing i can think
how did i not see this coming?
and such a shipreck to see
they’re on the nearby land
watching me
watching this descent
is this how it was meant?
was this written in the stars?
can i blame god...
have you ever noticed, that if you lay down in your clothes, fully dressed, it’s a very uncomfortable feeling. but have you ever woken up gotten dressed, the whole time dreading your day ahead, but then after you are dressed you realize you don’t have to face the day you were dreading whether it be work or school, the occasional “calling in sick” or snow day allows you to...
“I wish some way, some how
I could turn this world right back around
and mend...”
– Between The Trees
I woke up in a familiar place today, a place I had been trying to avoid for the last couple of weeks. A place where nothing goes right and there’s no hope. This isn’t a geographic place nor is it a place many would like to visit. A place I’m going to have to face alone. I woke today from a dream where all was right in the world, where we weren’t alone to face this world...
